Welcome.
The road that you’re on sounds like it has taken on its own life. What is important now is that you take care of yourself. This is something that am I just starting to do and it’s not easy. But take time, focus on what you need, and if you cant find a meeting then come here. There are hundreds of people here to listen and share what they have learned.
Recovery for you, and your husband, is going to be a long road. Surround your self with friends and family and take care of your self. You are stronger than you know!