I have always been comfortable (maybe too comfortable) expressing my feelings and letting emotions flow (after years of stifling them with my family of origin and ah I have felt okay for while being open and emotional with friends).
One of the things I am feeling weird about is that I feel NOTHING. I feel panicky but not sad, angry, or well, emotional. I have been thinking "okay at some point I'm going to melt down" and I am petrified that when I do I won't be able to contain my emotions (I am not worried of harming AH or myself-- just terrified that I will start crying and not stop or lose my mind altogether).