Dawnie... I'm going through divorce right now, but my kids are older and I have been sober for two years. I can't relate to the pain you are feeling, but I can relate to the feeling of wishing my life was over. Just last night in fact I told God that it was okay with me if he called me home. But then I realized that it was not okay. My kids need me. My wife of 20 years may be leaving me, but my kids will always need me (just as they need their mother).
So I wish I had some magic wand to wave, but your kids need you too even if they take them from you. Take your feelings of pity right now and turn them into a positive and do the best you can. Call that social worker up and ask her if they have sitter services. Call a church up, many times they have these services. You can do it and NEVER say your life is not worth living. You are loved by many people, but sometimes we just don't see that because we are so caught up in our emotions.
John N
10-25-09