What's best for me?
Hi there. New to the forum.
Here's the situation: I love someone who's an alcoholic. We split up because he chose alcohol over spending time with me one too many times. I'd made a rule (which I don't like to do) with him some months ago that I wouldn't hang out with him if he'd been drinking. At any rate, he chose to go to the bar and blow off our plans together last week. It was like being cheated on by someone who chose a really ugly chick with a crappy personality instead of me.
A few days later, he attempted suicide by alcohol and ended up in a rehab hospital. I was so angry and felt very manipulated. He apologized for doing this to me, and to his family and friends. Frankly, I was so relieved to see him alive and well and committed to recovering that I took him back.
I don't know if this is the right thing for me or not. This guy is smart, funny, highly moral, and very attractive *on the days he's sober*. As a drunk, I can't stand him. It would be a horrible loss for someone like him to waste his life and end up drinking out of a paper sack under a bridge somwhere, which is where I feel he was headed.
I am really confused by my feelings now, and I'm at a loss about whether or not to trust the idea that he can successfully recover. Just being honest.