I'm not sure what stage it is, but I thought about stopping drinking for quite awhile before I actually did it, too. However, I knew I was an alcoholic. Alcohol was causing me problems with my family and eventually with my health. I just wasn't quite ready to stop.
You said you were ashamed of your actions in the bar and drunk texting. You said you drove home when you had been drinking and shouldn't have driven. And, you're making plans to go back to the brewery, where it seems that drinking must be a focus. When you look at that, do you believe that you don't have a problem with alcohol? I hope that you decide to stop drinking and live a sober life.
