knowing that you do not have to make a black and white decision TODAY is a great relief isn't it?
how about this too...
you do not have to worry what anyone else thinks of you...him, his parents, etc.
give yourself a break from this, I know for me there was a layer of fear and hurt that had to do with the idea of my own character being betrayed...that I would be misrepresented by my ex to his family and our common friends.
just breathe in, keep doing the next right thing for you and your children.
you are a sober woman in a very difficult situation doing the best you can, including reaching out for help and support...BRAVO!
there are a lot of people keeping you in their prayers
remember...your future is spotless, including this very next moment