Thank you for this Zoso. This reminds me of what I have been doing to myself over the last year of my life. An addict exBF coupled with a personality disorder for sure. I bookmarked this page to read again. Today I addressed him (will post something soon for support) and it turned into a hostile situation where I definitely feel tossed away. . . what BPDs are definitely good at. What I keep telling myself is why didn't I over the last year listen to that voice?