Yez, dear, he is wearing you down.
I think you need to tell your family and to move your babies back to New York.
You are too alone and everyone here can tell you, you can lose your mind if you have to deal with an addict all alone.
The best thing for you is to surround yourself with people who will love and protect you and your children.
Please consider calling your family again. Have them come and get you and your children. Your children and you are in such grave circumstances.
Everyone here knows how fragile you are. We know.
Cocaine makes people very powerful and ruthless.
Please call your family. This is too much for you alone and your children need security.
I'm so sorry for your heartbreak. The children must come first.