Thank you all so much for all of the support. I have felt alone and lost for so long. Just reading your words helps me see that there is a posibility to find some peace in my life again. I know he will call soon and I am dreading it but I will be strong and finally stand my ground. I am so afraid of how he will react even though he is all the way in NY I am still afraid. How pathetic is that. But I have to be strong for my babies I know. I just have to get passed this step. I have to.