Pigtails

Thanks Mavis. I've been trying to do this (can't say it's easy). I'm realizing that no matter what happens with him/us, I have to be in the best place possible for myself. Yesterday I went to a women's meeting and it was eerily appropriate. The topic centered around getting/staying strong in our program so that we can be there when other need us-- we can't give away what we don't have. People shared about loved ones whom they had practically given up on who suddenly took an interest in AA, years down the road. It gave me hope that my boyfriend might eventually want what I have (he's even said he wants to go to AA, but then backed down from that when the time came), but he can't want it, and I can't give it, if I don't have it. Sometimes I think it will be too late for us because the window will have passed and I will have had to have made some decisions for my own life, to move on and find someone more similar to the way I want my life to be, but even then perhaps if he ever wants sobriety he will know where to find it. And maybe it won't be too late. But whatever happens I have to just keep focused on myself and work my own program. Thanks again.