Welcome Foster! We're so glad you found us. Try not to take on too many problems at once. Getting sober is the main thing right now, and other things will fall into place once you're clearheaded. Everything seems overwhelming in early recovery - I remember that feeling so well.
I drank my whole life, & in the end was completely dependent on it. I had to learn to live again without it. You can't move forward until you stop dwelling on your past mistakes. Learn from them, yes - but you'll stay stuck on square one if you fill your mind with remorse and guilt. You can still become the person you want to be. Try being kind and patient with yourself as you heal. Congratulations on your 3 days. Let us know how you're doing - we care.