Welcome spinach
Maybe see a Dr about that liver pain and the anxiety - that way you can set your mind at rest a little?
There are a load of recovery methods around - and many of them - AA SMART and LifeRing - all offer online meetings, while RationalRecovery has no meetings at all
Here's some links to some of the main players:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html
I recommend you visit the
Secular Connections forum if you think you may benefit from a non 12 step approach like SMART LifeRing, RR etc.
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