Haha the screenname actually is just the first letter of myself,husband, and,daughters .. Even my Dr thinks (knowing me personally ) I wouldn't be the type to benefit from AA as others do. .(not saying it isnt great for those that do benefit from it). He is working with a mental health Dr to work out the best med combo and I'm doing therapy. . But as another poster mentioned , even my Dr said I have to remain sober and give the meds a fair chance to work before just assuming they won't and picking back up the bottle. The librium is extremely short term but it has been a miracle for me detoxing. I honestly feel zero withdraw right now and any other time I've detoxed was a nightmare. So my immediate struggle is ok .. It s the long term fight that I am still afraid of.