Good for you...Why was it overwhelming?...Just curious...Yeah...Everytime I've been powerless over alcohol??...Not sure I could do that...Not sure how many I even remember....You might want to start a little routine in your life...Set a certain time everyday to write...Maybe come up with 5 or 10 a day...Than have a certain time to read...Do a chapter a day....Pick a certain meeting you like and go to that one every day if you can....My sponsor suggested that to me....I was all over the map and my life was definitely lacking any structure....It helped me...Don't set your expectations to high for yourself...Make a schedule that you can accomplish what's on it...Give yourself credit when you get things done...Sorry to hear about the wife...It's your second day sober and you went to a meeting and got a sponsor....You should be proud of yourself...Just don't let that get to you. Just try to be a good sober husband.