I went to an AA meeting
I came home and my wife who has been supportive, has been giving me dirty looks and is making me feel disgusted with myself. She is upset because she wanted to take our son to a movie but now it is to late, She wont really talk to me and like I said gives me unearthly glares.
The meeting was very overwhelming but I did meet someone there who is willing to sponsor me which is the first time ever. He asked me to write down everytime I have felt powerless due to alchoal which is an exausting and daunting task in my head. he also asked me to read the first three chapters than give him a call
My nerves are still very unsettled and I brought up in the group the whole pot thing and everyone there said that is still a mind altering drug and as you all said stay away from it.