I failed.
Almost had day four down. The panic attacks came back and I found myself at the store buying a 6 pack. Which isn't nearly enough to make me drunk, but it made the panic stop. So I'm back to day one. Dizzy as hell again. I'm so depressed. I feel trapped. I tried so hard, did the right things, meetings, relaxing, breathing, but I couldn't do it. I am trapped in this cycle, scared, sad...
just, sad.
CD