I failed.
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I failed.
Almost had day four down. The panic attacks came back and I found myself at the store buying a 6 pack. Which isn't nearly enough to make me drunk, but it made the panic stop. So I'm back to day one. Dizzy as hell again. I'm so depressed. I feel trapped. I tried so hard, did the right things, meetings, relaxing, breathing, but I couldn't do it. I am trapped in this cycle, scared, sad...
just, sad.
CD
just, sad.
CD
Its hard man (hopefully I got that right?), I know, keep on stepping up to the plate! I really only want to say I hope you don't do what I have noticed myself doing which is getting less practise in quiting then I do with how not to.
Sorry if that doesn't make sense.
Sorry if that doesn't make sense.
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Join Date: Dec 2011
Location: Michigan
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If it were easy to stop everyone would do it and this forum wouldn't exist.
I failed many times quitting drinking and while I've been on a winning streak lately I know failure is always right there.
Forget what happened, forget that you slipped. Focus on the now, what can you do right now that is a positive step forward? Go to a meeting, hell go to as many as you need to to make it through today.
I've seen people go to 4-5 a day in the beginning just to get through it.
Just don't give up on trying and like many said in your thread about anxiety...get to a doctor and get some help for the anxiety.
Stay positive, you can do it.
I failed many times quitting drinking and while I've been on a winning streak lately I know failure is always right there.
Forget what happened, forget that you slipped. Focus on the now, what can you do right now that is a positive step forward? Go to a meeting, hell go to as many as you need to to make it through today.
I've seen people go to 4-5 a day in the beginning just to get through it.
Just don't give up on trying and like many said in your thread about anxiety...get to a doctor and get some help for the anxiety.
Stay positive, you can do it.
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Join Date: Dec 2011
Location: Indiana
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There is something about day 4, that's when I ALWAYS relapse. I can't get 5 days. You didn't fail, just keep trying, if you get to that 5th day or 1 week celebrate and do something good for yourself. Good luck.
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Join Date: Dec 2011
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I'm coming up on nine months...I still go to at least 5 meetings a week...Because I like them and that's where my friends are...Early on it was a place that was safe and I could see people that had made it work...I got a lot of hope from that..
(in a gentle voice from someone who has done this many times in 25 years) Four days and you drank. Of course you drank. It takes practice to stay stopped; baby steps. Next time try for 6 days, at least, maybe 7. Maybe just don't drink today. Do something nice for you today. Just today.
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Join Date: Dec 2011
Location: Canada. About as far south as you can get
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I found that when I attended meetings every day I didn't have to drink.
Go to the meetings and tell them about your panic attacks. Everyone I told said that they had them too.
I thought "You mean they go away????!!!!". Yes, they will go away.
Cloudy, some folks here say that they can do this on their own. more power to them..
I CAN'T, and you may be one of us. Wishing you the best.
Bob R
Go to the meetings and tell them about your panic attacks. Everyone I told said that they had them too.
I thought "You mean they go away????!!!!". Yes, they will go away.
Cloudy, some folks here say that they can do this on their own. more power to them..
I CAN'T, and you may be one of us. Wishing you the best.
Bob R
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Join Date: Mar 2011
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It wasn't that you "couldn't" do it, it is that you "didn't." I in no way mean that to be a put-down. I just mean that it takes time. Don't beat yourself up for past mistakes, look at them, learn from it and move on.
Good luck.
Good luck.
You are strong to get as far as you did.
I don't think I could have.
My saving grace was hospital where I stayed a month. Complete cold turkey. I can't say I had any cravings there as it is a completely different atmosphere (and clinical, obviously)... I was being fed/watered/bathed/looked after. Completely taken out of the day to day life I was used to. I even gave up smoking for a month while I was there as well. (That didn't last!)
My admiration for all of you who are doing it yourselves is vast.
And thank god for the NHS!
I don't think I could have.
My saving grace was hospital where I stayed a month. Complete cold turkey. I can't say I had any cravings there as it is a completely different atmosphere (and clinical, obviously)... I was being fed/watered/bathed/looked after. Completely taken out of the day to day life I was used to. I even gave up smoking for a month while I was there as well. (That didn't last!)
My admiration for all of you who are doing it yourselves is vast.
And thank god for the NHS!
Almost had day four down. The panic attacks came back and I found myself at the store buying a 6 pack. Which isn't nearly enough to make me drunk, but it made the panic stop. So I'm back to day one. Dizzy as hell again. I'm so depressed. I feel trapped. I tried so hard, did the right things, meetings, relaxing, breathing, but I couldn't do it. I am trapped in this cycle, scared, sad...
just, sad.
CD
just, sad.
CD
dust yourself off and try again. most of us don't get it the first or second or even 100th time. we just keep trying until we get it.
Almost had day four down. The panic attacks came back and I found myself at the store buying a 6 pack. Which isn't nearly enough to make me drunk, but it made the panic stop. So I'm back to day one. Dizzy as hell again. I'm so depressed. I feel trapped. I tried so hard, did the right things, meetings, relaxing, breathing, but I couldn't do it. I am trapped in this cycle, scared, sad...
just, sad.
CD
just, sad.
CD
Ha ha. Its Ok. Its the UK National Health Service. Basically, its free health care.
I think that in the US etc you need health insurance (tied in with your job? not sure) and don't get free health care. I have read here in dismay that a couple of people won't go to the ER because they cannot afford it!
We are very lucky here and can be blasé about it. There are alot of people from other countries come here (legally or not) for the free healthcare system. This is clogging the system somewhat and the waiting lists for operations are very long, Im not sure how it works exactly, but there is a duty of care to treat everyone. Well, I hope that answers your wonderings!
BTW, how did you know... I have a Nintendo Wii !!!
I think that in the US etc you need health insurance (tied in with your job? not sure) and don't get free health care. I have read here in dismay that a couple of people won't go to the ER because they cannot afford it!
We are very lucky here and can be blasé about it. There are alot of people from other countries come here (legally or not) for the free healthcare system. This is clogging the system somewhat and the waiting lists for operations are very long, Im not sure how it works exactly, but there is a duty of care to treat everyone. Well, I hope that answers your wonderings!
BTW, how did you know... I have a Nintendo Wii !!!
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