Nirvana,
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. (1 John 1:9 NIV84)
Period. You just have to believe.
Jesus came to free us, not condemn. Condemnation comes from the Devil.
Pray for a discerning spirit to sort out the voices in your head.
As far as your GF, she should understand we are all at different levels of our faith walk, just like sobriety.
I personally would look at other churches to find one that strengthens my faith, not lessens it. One that uplifts, inspires & teaches Gods love, forgiveness, healing & restoration. Jesus came to set the captives free, not bind them up again.
Congrats on 15 months! Awesome job
