You're not an idiot ... you're an alcoholic. Don't beat yourself up. What are you going to do about it though? Hey, I've been on a weeklong bender after 2 months of sober time. Duh. When am *I* going to get it? lol We're in this together. Don't give up on yourself. Do you have a sober plan this time around? That's what I had to examine and think about ...