I can identify with that too, Bill.
I don't derive any enjoyment whatsoever when people are miserable, or when bad things happen to them (even people who are really unpleasant), but I do tend to throw out the snarky remarks without much thought, as a sort of preemptive attack...and, I suppose, as a way of trying to make myself feel "better" than other people because I feel so down low about myself.
I know I've mentioned that trait in myself before, but it certainly bears repeating, at least for my own continued acknowledgement.
I hate that about myself, and I find that I still do it (well, I've only really been digging at this stuff for a couple of months, so I'll give myself a bit of a learning curve). But I'm glad that I don't do it to the extent that my mom does.
I'm also very quick to point out any potentially fearful conditions with any scenario, and it drives me crazy. I know we've all said it many times, but it's like I was never taught how to truly be happy, so I just don't know how to do it. And so it goes...
