Hi Freddy
I think it's very important you look at this in perspective. Maybe it's not the best idea to look at this as a failure, cos that makes it easier to justify drinking more - maybe you can look at this as simply a remind of how relentless and insidious our addiction can be?
Perhaps its best to put that energy into trying to add things to your recovery to ensure this kind of thing doesn't happen again?
whats your recovery support like? You don't talk much about that.
Maybe you need to think more about making some changes too, at least for a while - there are better places to be than a pool hall in early recovery. I made that mistake too - more than once.
I used to think being sober would fix all my problems too Freddy- it didn't - there was no magic wand...but by the time I got to about 90 days I found out it provided a pretty good platform for me to start working out my problems
I hope you'll give staying sober another chance Freddy - I don't regret it
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