Welcome notdoingfine. You can go to another aa meeting tomorrow. Please never compare yourself, everyone's got their own issues going on as a result of alcoholism. I always say drugs & booze are the great equalizers...it matters not our lot in life, they want us dead.
This is an amazing site, I hope you read & post lots, I feel the fear in your posts.
I know by the time I got sober the by products of alcohol were emanating from my pores too. And whenever I'm around a chronic drinker now I can smell it on them. It's probably just all the toxins in your body.
Very warm welcome & best wishes to you.