Thank you both. Funny, I'm sitting in the chat room and someone speaks of a book called "Anger"
Anger is what brings me here. Anger is what sent me in to that AA meeting today. Anger is what had me start using in the first place. Anger, and a very poor understanding of what it is and how to deal with it.
And yes, I am a "starstarstarstar." Man up, for Christ's sake. And yes, suffering is relative. What makes mine so bad is that it is mine. But really, would I not like to have another's? Would another not like to have mine? This is why I say man up.
I will go to more meetings. I will do what I need to make this messed up situation right again. And I will continue to do so. Perhaps that is what I will focus this anger upon.
And I say all this, I have an urge to go get a drink. This is surreal.