I've been lurking for sometime but there have been a few responses that made me cringe and want to not come back but I am here. I think I need to be beat up and reminded of the harm and hurt I have caused to make me see that this is not the way anymore. Sad thing is, I see that, I know that, I have lived that, now how do I stop. I want to!
I feel sick when I think I am not going to have a bottle to pour, I plan my daily life on where to buy my next bottle, it controls my life.
To be honest, I have never attended a church/ Sunday School so to speak and never really prayed to a higher power, at this point I'm not really even sure I believe, so without the 12 steps and the higher power, how does one proceed?
Go easy on me and no preaching please! I love stopping in and reading all of the posts!