Wow that was a hard night. Hate surprises like that, I know what you mean. But you have shown a lot of insight and maturity in this thread. You're really getting in touch with your feelings. Sure triggers still happen and always will however it sounds like you are springing back sooner with more clarity. I never got any acknowledgment from my folks and you may not either but don't let that get in your way of succeeding. You have your baby to think of now, giving that child a safe and happy home. Well we're here for you, glad you got it off your chest.