Thanks for the encouragemnt, I have had struggled with substance abuse since I was 12 years old. The longest times sober were when I was pregnant with my 2 children. other than that I have drank in moderation at times, then lose control and hit bottom like I did this time. I am committed to not drinking at all this time. I think this is what I needed to push me over the edge. And I thank God for this chance. I know this is a good place to come for support, thanks, I look forward to reading and sharing some of my experiences to maybe help others. Its nice to know I am not alone. and not be judged.