Terminally Unique

The AV can certainly shape your reality if you are not aware of it. Regardless, though, my personal reality is that drinking does have its benefits, however primal, banal, short-lived, and ultimately very expensive they may be. Drinking once made me feel good all over, from head to toe. It was better than sex.

To not acknowledge this is folly, and accounts for the many re-treads amongst those who try to scare themselves sober by reminding themselves that 'it doesn't feel good anymore' or that 'it isn't fun anymore'. It may not be that way now, but it sure was at some point, and your addiction isn't likely to forget that.