I think you are very courageous for "not wanting to worry your mom", but being a mother myself I would like to encourage you to share with her if you are needing her support in leaving the situation....especially if she has the means or ability to help. She would much rather be 'worried' and know you are safe than be 'clueless' and have you be unhappy or in harm's way. Besides, she probably knows a lot more than you think and is just waiting for YOU to come to HER for help. Just think about it. ((((Hugs))))