Hi 1undone..I'm sorry you're sad today. Have you read Alan Carr's The Easy Way to Quit Drinking? It's not a magic pill or anything, but he does a nice job addressing how we tend to glamorize drinking. It helped me and it made a lot of sense.
I can't speak to the control thing and I'm not in AA. For me, it feels like I finally TOOK control. I didn't have control when I was drinking 8 drinks every time I had 1, most nights a week. I hope you can find a way to be happy about your sobriety. Keep up the good work and congrats on your sober time!
