Hey DG, I am sorry to hear that you relapsed.
This is just my opinion, but you need to get sober for yourself first. I was in a tradition study last night with some women and we were discussing true happiness and how it has to come from within. You cannot base it on another person, even your husband.
I am struggling to grasp this concept, but I know it is true. I have SO MUCH STUFF to work on as a person now. It is almost too much.
Drinking alcohol destroys even the notion that you need to work on yourself, much less attempting to do it.
If you really want to be sober, DO IT! Do it now. Don't make excuses for yourself. TAKE ACTION. Listen to what people suggest here. Go to AA. Get a sponsor. Work the steps.