OK, I am a 29 yr old male that has had substance abuse problems for a good 12 years now, using hard stuff (heroin, coke/crack) a good part of the past 10 years, mixed in with minimal sobriety periods as well as methadone clinics, detoxes and even tried suboxone once.
A week ago I talked to my GF and came clean that I been using the majority of the past 6-7 months (after my best friend died of an OD) and she said she needs time to see if we have a future together (she grew up with her parents as drug users and was affected greatly, she doesnt want that in her or her daughters life and I dont blame her). So that was my breaking point, my 'rock bottom' for me to make the changes I need. I am still on the Methadone clinic (70mg) but just signed the paper work today to come down 5mg, I have been sober almost a week and just want to change my life.
What means the most to me is my loved ones and family. I been with my girl 3 years, she has an 8 year old daughter from a previous relationship who I love and get along with well. I live with my mother and old brother (who has down syndrom) and have a younger brother who is married and doing well. These are the people I LOVE, I want this for not only myself but for them and to be with them, thats whats most important to me.
I dont get to see anyone of them much as I work 2nd/3rd shift, my brother lives 30 minutes away and he works 3rd shift, my GF lives in the same town we both work in (same job) but she isnt ready to have me come back over at the moment as she wants me to work on myself while she thinks about the future, and my mother works during the day and while she loves and supports me she also has a life of her own.
I want to have a great life, I dont want to be a drug addict, I know I can do this, I just need to take the right steps and make the right choices, and hopefully know what to do and what to ask for help as well.
Thanks for reading
