Originally Posted by
soberwingz 
I too knew the fear of quitting. I, like many of us drank every day for years. The idea of quitting was nothing short of terror for me. Please know that you can break the cycle. The drinking life is not your natural state.
Aurelle, these words describe my experience exactly, I was terrified at the thought of quitting alcohol. How the heck was I going to cope with all of my problems and fears without it? However, events came to pass for me that required that I stop drinking, no matter the consequences.
I soon learned that my fear and anxiety were not helped by alcohol in the least. On the contrary.
Booze was causing my anxiety and depression. Breaking that cycle gave me back my life, and also gave me more than my small share of serenity and peace.
You deserve to live a pretty darned good life, and that is one without alcohol. Make that plan about using alcohol again - that is your first thing to do. Welcome to SoberRecovery, and thank you for your post.