Good Morning All,
I know things are getting better day by day... I guess I'm looking for that feeling of inner peace that I haven't had for about 2 years. All of these residual-negative thoughts about my AHBF (ex now) are really popping up. Old memories some good MOST BAD are making there way to the top and Its painful to see and process it all. Im finally having those angry...let me throw all of his stuff in the trash and burn it all (LOL) crazy thoughts are here. The need to trash talk about him and how much of an A-hole he is... This has never really been me and in fact up to about 3 weeks ago had been very cordial with him. Always returned what he asked for and never was really angry. I feel out of control and have been reading the sticky's, they aren't really helping, I think because I cant read and process them in a positive way. I just want him to know how much pain I'm in and that I haven't forgotten all the awful things he put me through.
and yes I know I'm a codie and usually I do take responsibility for what my part in this all was, I guess I'm just plain ANGRY!!! and I hope this faze passes soon as this anger is not good and it's making me ill. Any thoughts.. I find that you guys sometimes give me different perspectives or at least can relate...
Thanks
Q