I don't think anybody walks into their first AA meeting because their life is at the top of their game.....Everybody is scared...For me...Ashamed...Terrified...Is probably a better word. Open meeting. You don't have to be a member of AA...You can bring a friend if you want....Closed...Members only...How to become a member....Have an honest desire to quit drinking.....Big Book...Goes through the book...Step meeting...Usually a step every meeting...It varies...Beginners....Might be good for you...Mens...Womens...They're all good. The fear will be gone when you walk out out of the meeting...All I felt was hope...I didn't have much when I went in....All you have to do is sit and listen...Talk to some people before and after..Tell them you are new...They'll take care of you...They are people just like you and me. Alkies.