No I have not done any AA meetings not only am I uncomfortable with the idea of them I also just can't get to them. I am literally either at work or at home I don't leave my house any other time. That is the main reason I joined this site, I can share and also learn from other people from my home.
As for quitting my job, if there was any possible way I would, unfortunately with bills to pay and no other jobs in the area ( I've been applying at other places for awhile now) I must suck it up and keep in going. I have quit drinking and chose to do so not only for my life but also my family. I am fo to be able to draw strength from them and from Jesus.
I am just trying to find ways to calm my nerves before going to work and finding something that can keep my mind off alcohol.