Well I just posted a thread that you may very well relate to.
It was very difficult for me to do no contact with ExAB. I didn't want to see him but I read and responded to texts and took 3 phone calls. All ended with me hurt frustrated or angry. Even the manipulative ones where he was being super sweet as I knew it was for his own gain.
Do the best you can with NO CONTACT. You will do it on your own time once you have experienced enough of the never ending roller coaster from hell.
You deserve a peaceful happy and healthy relationship and nothing less.
BIG HUG