Thank you everyone for your kind words and support. It really means alot to me. Going through this alone is not easy.
Wednesday is my day off and I am going to see a GYN that my friend recommended. I am trying very hard to not borrow trouble and stay calm until then. Its hard.
I am not drinking and have not had a drink since January 21st. I don't physically crave it, I just desire the ability to temporarily escape the pain. I am going to try to stay as busy as possible and figure out ways to not cry on the train on my way to work or at my desk in between client meetings.
Its weird, I have seen people cry in public before and it always facinated me. I've seen people do it on the street, in a diner and on the bus...just crying in a crowded room alone. I could never understand what could possibly be that wrong to break down so visibly in public. Now I understand.
Again, thank you. You are all very selfless to reach out to a person crying in public; its hard to look at.