Well, I am about to admit something big here. I had just gone to rehab for coke and alcohol when I was 35. Immediately got pregnant afterwards. Started drinking again one month after I found out I was pregnant (bad relationship with father - got married to him right out of rehab, and went through an extremely abusive relationship for over 15 years. Sober for 8 years, drank for 2, sober for 9 years - ended up leaving Atlanta and moving to Austin to escape him four years ago)-scared and lonely once in Austin, started drinking again for 4 years - now 6 months sober. Whoops didn't mean for this to be about me.
Bottom line, stop drinking right now and see a doctor asap. Although my baby was born healthy, the shame, horror and hate for myself during that pregnancy almost killed me. Please don't make yourself go through that. I wish I could hug you.
Please stop drinking asap, and get to a doctor.