It is a big adjustment ~ sounds like all your feelings and emotions are right on track for what you have been thru ~
Although it may seem like an inconvenience - please try to keep going to the therapist - YOU deserve that YOU time!!
In my opinion, YOUR recovery is just as important as HIS recovery ~ if you have a chance, maybe get some Al-Anon literature to read, others have suggested the Co-Dependent No More series too! The "stickys" and other post here from members who have been thru similar situations may help you too
Most of all - Remember - Breathe, Just Breathe ~
It's ok to take it all ONE day at a time~!
PINK HUGS,
Rita