Congrats on 42 days. I'm a couple of days behind you. I just keep remembering the futility of it all and how bad it made me feel after the initial few drinks.
The hangovers, the sickness, the tiredness, insomnia, headaches, depression, tearfulness, lethargy, fear, anxiety, anger, hate, nastiness, bloatedness, fear of driving, fear of getting stopped, fear of people smelling it on me, fear of getting up in the morning, fear of everything really. Then the horrendous withdrawals
And now, life is still life but much better than it was. The clear headedness I have is such a new feeling. I never ever want to go back to what I was like-so that is what I think of if I ever get a craving.