I am so glad you are going to get counseling, that's one of the things that helped me understand my own feelings and behaviours.
You are doing well, really you are (and you know I don't tell fibs). It's just hard to do it all the time.
And your boy is always in my prayers, you are too. God's got quite a list from me and I know He's listening, even when I annoy Him.
And congratulations!!! Washbe Day is destined to be a big success!!! Do something special for yourself because you are Queen of the Day!!!
Hugs