hi and welcome LW
This is a great community - I came here 5 years ago pretty messed up and confused and beaten down by my drinking...the help and support I got here helped me turn my life around.
It's not a walk in the park - sometimes it can get pretty hard - but you're not alone here, and if I could do it I know you can do it too
Have you given any thought to what you're prepared to do?
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