Thanks Dan, I mentioned to my better half that mamybe I should think about going to an aa meeting.
This is not a huge area and she rather I did not because it truely is not anomynous here in her view.
I was not from here originally and am not in a position to argue.
She has trouble believing that I am going through this much trouble yet she really wishes I could have drank more responsibly. Never ever hurt her but have embarrased a few times when people notice that I am always just a little more drunk than the rest of the crowd.
I don't know what to do.