Thanks, it's not even boring it's just difficult. I was drunk off and on, mostly on for 50 years so it was my normal even though insane. I used to see people in a restuarant not get a drink or not finish one and I couldn't even understand. My entire being needs reprogramming. My dad gave me drinks as a kid and it just was part of my life and now I'm learning a new way of living. It's strange but human.