MyCoolFitz,
What a nice post to read. I just got back from a walk with my dogs too. Yeah, I don't know what normal is, but I think I might be getting a little closer too.
And I know what you mean about feeling comfortable around other addicts, etc. I don't think a non-addict could totally understand me. Sometimes I feel like I have this big secret, and so often I struggle with the whole concept of normalcy. I miss the rush, but normal is beginning to feel less boring, if that makes sense. I think I am learning how to live again, so I am just trying to go with the flow. I am glad you had a nice hike - yeah, a hot bath sounds great!