dysfunctional I don't know what the next step is for you, but you made a giant first step in abstaining! Get to an AA meeting as soon as you can...they can help and guide you. You can get better and all that you mentioned regarding not being able to speak will subside.... Please explore this site and see other forums where help is just waiting for you!
PS Rest and care for yourself and get better soon.
There are genuine, loving people here. Please, use them! We want to help.