I know drinking is not the answer. My problems will be there and seem a million times worse when I sober up
Yep. I remember that. Clearly. And I had to develop coping skills to deal with the anxiety and depression that had been hidden by alcohol and drugs for all that time. The problems build and wait. The longer you hide, the worse it'll be. I'm sorry, but that's my experience.
Sometimes it just feels like doing this one day/hour/minute at a time is SO MUCH WORK. Does it get easier?
It is worth that one day/hour/minute! Getting used to not being drunk/high and developing coping skills is worth it. And yes, it does get easier.... some ppl take a short time, some take a longer time. But yes, it does get easier.
The miracle? Its been said...... look in the mirror. An addict/alkie not using is a miracle. A bigger miracle, the one I look at the most? Me, not wanting alcohol or drugs.
And listen to Sandy. She has some great suggestions.
Wanting to scream? Why not scream your heart out into a pillow.
And..... keep coming here, reading and posting!