During active addiction addiction I disappointed my father so much. He was my everything as an only child, it was just me an him growing up. I remember that day so clearly, when after a relapse, he said "don't call me if your on your death bed, don't call me if your in jail, I have no son from this point foward, good luck." God met me when I hung up that phone and he got me to a meeting, that's a miracle. I'm clean today, that's a miracle. I have a better relationship now based on trust and honesty with my father than I've ever had, that's a miracle. My father wants what I have, spiritually, that's a miracle to the program of NA. My father said thank god for NA, because if it wasn't for this program, I wouldn't have a son, that's a miracle. I now help people unconditionally and love them until they can love themselves, that's a true miracle.