I come here to ask for advice. What should I be doing? Drop out of uni? Seek professional help? (something i would find embarrassing) My family all know i like a tipple, but would be horrified to find out how much i actually drink. I need help!
All the things you mentioned are pretty standard for us: progressive use, lack of interest in life, solitary drinking, depression and anxiety, not being able to stop...
My depression and anxiety increased to the point that I was unable to work. Unfortunately, that made it so much easier to drink. Progress was all negative until my last drink, when my anti d medication started to work and my head began to clear. Decisions I feared while drinking became non issues in a most remarkable way.
Whacky, you have decided that you need a plan, and that the status quo is no longer an option. I won't give you any advice on your career decisions, but I will advise you to make a plan for your continued use of alcohol. Will you continue to drink?