AA is a sobriety program I use to keep me from drinking. It is fact that if I have another drink, I will die. I don't want to die, and will do anything to stop, even if it involves sacrificing long held beliefs. Funny thing is, one of the main parts of the AA program is sacrificing long held beliefs, go figure. If you're one bit the alcoholic I am, your only ends are a prison, a hospital, a morgue, or a recovery program. I hope you find your way to the last one. Best of luck.
camedown
